Five surgeries has left B with quite a few scars. I like to look at them and think about the journey we have faced to get to this place. They will heal and one day you won't even notice them but they will always be there to remind us of where we were and what we have been through. I hope this surgery was his last but I know there is always a chance for more.
It's been a long road for us and I'm not sure it's over. I am still searching for my place of peace with our situation. Life has been chaotic and I look forward to it slowing down. I look forward to the day when I can look around and take a big breath of relief that life is finally moving forward.
I have my own scars, mine are not visible like B's. I too am still healing from everything. I still mourn my pregnancy, my birth, and my newborn I so deeply wanted. I still hurt from what my son is going through. I don't think that will ever completely go away. My son has a long journey ahead of him and I need to be there for him. Old hurt will be replaced with new hurt and with it new joy. New scars will come and heal, all part of the journey.
I never posted any pictures from his operations. I think I wasn't ready to share them but they are a part of him and his recovery.
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37 Sweet Comments:
What a beautiful baby! And mama! You guys sure are fighters! xoxo
We love you Brayden!
love, the lunas
B is a fighting soul. You have so much love and support surrounding you, both in person and in prayer. Big hugs to you and your precious boy!
Big hugs and prayers to you and your family. Brayden gets his strength from his mama:)
You are so much stronger than you even know. Such a sweet baby boy he is. :)
Those scars are beautiful! I think mourning the pregnancy, the birth and the newborn we thought is just is something we all do... I look at c-section scar with some admiration and sadness..
I think having mixed feelings makes it harder.. Because most things in life are either good or bad... But these scars create both... good because of the healing , like you said.. and bad because of the situations and memories these scars will forever bring to the surface!
Sorry for the long comment... just a lot on my mind today.. B is doing amazing and as one of his "sergeant aunts" I am so proud of him!
Heather, you are such a strong woman it's amazing! You are surrounded by infinite love and support - you are truly blessed. And so is your little boy. He's strong as well and will one day look at this as the road you all had to walk on and endure, just to form a bond that no one else has.
Hugs to all three of you!!!
Thank you for sharing your honesty. You are truely an amazing woman!
What a tough little dude....AND Mommy and Daddy! Prayers being sent up daily for you guys from Kentucky! Stay strong!
Precious baby boy!!
Brave little Brayden. I'm praying he recovers fast from his last surgery :)
Poor baby! He is one strong little guy!
Such a sweet and strong little angel! He's a true miracle baby! He's continuing to prove his strength and will to not only survive but thrive :) We're thinking of you often sweet little Brayden!!! Cheering you on! Much love,
Josh, Nadine, and Jaden!
B is such a fighter!!!! And a cutie!
You and D are stronger than you think you are! Everyday I think about Brayden and your family! He is one brave little man! There will be a day that you can move on from this and what you are going through now will be part of a distant memory!
Stay strong and please let us know if there is anything we can do for you!
Heather,
I continue to be amazed at your strength. I'm a pediatric nurse, but I have to admit that those images made me tear up. No mother should have to watch their child suffer.
God chose you to be Brayden's mother because He knew you could love him the way he would need. I know that doesn't change your pain...and I am sure there are days where you just mourn for that feeling of normalcy...but, Brayden is so blessed to have you as his mommy.
You are stronger than you think! In Brayden's eyes, you are a hero.
Sending you a big hug,
Sarah
Bless his little brave heart...and your's too. You are so strong. You continue to be such an inspiration to me every day!! Sending prayers always!
Thank you for sharing this with me (us) You are one very strong Mom and B will learn from you as you sound truly amazing. And scars are beautiful they share the untold stories of our lives. And B will always have those stories to share and so will you and they form who we are and what we believe in. We are so pleased that B is still going well and recovering.
You are both such strong fighters! To have braved such adversity and come out on the other side... I am humbled you let us read along for the journey.
Praying that the scars continue to fade and you both heal along the way.
I have no doubt that one day you will look back and be so proud of how far you all have come. You've got such a tough little boy!
This was such a beautiful post; you are so admirable and strong. Thank you for sharing your heart! B is such a warrior; I can't wait to see him grow into the amazing man we all know he is going to be! HUGS!!
You brought me to tears tonight Heather. You are so honest and strong...I admire you in so many ways. This little man could not be more beautiful or precious and like you said...those scars are just a reminder of that. Can't wait to read that you are all home and living each day like a normal, sleep-less family :-) xoxo
When I was a lifeguard, there was a little boy at the pool who had a scar on his chest from heart surgery when he was an infant. He was SO proud of that scar and said it was the mark from where an angel kissed him and healed his heart.
Brayden has been kissed by so many angels! You and your family are so strong and I'm praying for y'all every step of the way.
poor sweet baby! i just found your blog. i'm from indy. bro lives in chicago. we're AF tho so we move a lot. I'm so sorry to hear about all the surgeries!
i just want you to know that every picture of b i see i just want to pick him up and kiss him. that sweet sweet baby has been through more than i can even fathom and has stronger parents and more love than he even knows. know that there are people that stalk your blog to make sure that angel is okay and thriving and are praying for that to continue. kisses kisses KISSES to that sweet baby and hugs to his strong parents!
Little B is so lucky to have such a sweet, caring, strong momma
I am crying for you right now...no matter how many prayers offered up, I can never imagine what you have been through after seeing Brayden's scars. What a brave little boy and even braver mommy and daddy. I am amazed at your strength and determination. Brayden truly is a beautiful little boy - made more beautiful by the scars from the surgeries that are making him better.
You guys are such a stong, brave little family and B is so lucky to have such loving parents...
I especially like the last quote you posted. Little Brayden is going to have the biggest & best character! ALL of his scars are just as precious & beautiful as he is!!! Take care of yourself & that sweet boy, Mommy!
WOW! I can't imagine seeing my baby like this. Prayers for y'all. You are so strong!
I found your blog a few months ago through a different blog. I have prayed for you guys many times.
You are a stong woman and you are doing a great job being a mommy. It is ok to mourn the full pregnancy and newborn experience. Let yourself mourn it. It will be good for your soul.
It is good to hear that this last round of surgeries went really smooth and there are no infection.
I pray that your son stays healthy and gets stronger. And I pray for you. Give your sweet son many kisses from all the blog readers who pray for him.
Oh baby boy! What a little fighter. It makes my heart hurt to see his scars. I know they are there because of surgeries to make him better, but it still breaks your heart as a momma to watch your baby struggle. You are so strong! One day you will get to look around a breathe a sigh of relief. Your day will be filled with keeping B's hands out of the dog bowls and off of the end tables. You will get there one day, you just have to take the road less traveled to get there.
poor little sweetheart. It's crazy what he has to go through but he's being really brave and you guys, too. He knows that his mummy and daddy are there to protect and comfort him and that gives him strength. I really hope for you that you'll be able to go home with him soon and that you don't have to go back to the hospital anymore. B is such a sweet little angel, really! Extra sweet when he's sleeping on your chest...that little mouth of his, lol, so supercute!!! Lots of hugs,ivy
I pray God brings healing to your family, in every area needed.
You are a wonderfully, strong mommy.
Lots of love from our family to yours.
He's so beautiful.. And what a story he has to tell.
Such a strong little guy! He's going to do such great things in his life. B is already an inspiration!
Beautiful boy. . scars and all. . .he certainly IS the strongest soul I know.
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