Tuesday, December 27

A very Merry Christmas

I always get that sad feeling after Christmas and realize we will have to wait another year. I look forward to New Years and the promise of a fresh start, so to speak. January I find is always the slowest month and the coldest!

We had a wonderful Christmas. The eve spent with my in laws and xmas day with my parents. We were all spoiled this year. We feel very blessed.

Derek had off yesterday and we braved the mall, Ha! He needed new black shoes so we made a quick in and out at Macy's and got a really good deal!! I also popped into Yankee candle to hit the end of the year sale, 50% off!





 Being silly!

 Father-son naps on Christmas!

 Christmas jammies. We wore them all day!!


Hope you had a great holiday and Santa was good to you!!!

Thursday, December 22

The everything Brayden post

Aren't they all about little B?? LOL. I have had some of you asked for a Brayden update lately so here it goes...

Eating
B is eating pureed baby foods, that I make, 1-2 times a day with his special spoons we get through the speech therapist. He likes the vibrating spoon with the textured tip the best. (Z Vibe) He gets 4 bottles a day of Similac Formula 6-7 oz each. He takes his meds with a little bit of Vanilla Pediasure. He is still pretty slow with eating but he makes improvements each week. A bottle usually takes 30 minutes and we like it to be quiet or low noise to help him not get distracted. If we are out and about we usually find a quiet room to feed him in. He is on level 2 Born free nipple. He will occasionally get water with a splash of juice, he's not a big fan so we are slowly trying to get more clear fluids in.


Medications
B takes two seizure meds. Phenobarbital (since one week old) and Keppra. He gets blood drawn every 2.5 pounds he gains to make sure the drug levels are at a therapeutic dose. His neurologist wants to discontinue both next year and put him on a different med for seizures. Phenobar has been shown to make older kids fussy so we want to get him off. Eventually the goal is to be off all meds but it's a slow process. Even though he hasn't had a seizure since Feb 2011 we can't just take him off a medicine he has been on since one week old, it could have the adverse withdrawal effect. He takes his meds really well twice a day but I'm anxious to get him off them.


Sleep
B takes a cat nap in between each bottle, so three short naps a day. Usually 20-50 minutes. He naps in his crib or on a lap, he's a major cuddle bug! He goes to bed around 10 till around 8. He sleeps in his pack and play in our room at night. We will be making the night time sleep switch to the crib soon, although I love being a co-sleeper. I have converted to being a huge fan!

Development
B is very behind developmentally but his therapist are doing great things with him. He sees his physical, occupational, and vision therapist once a week and his speech therapist twice a month. He loves his ladies and they adore him, he's quite the charmer!

He is getting stronger each day and slowly making improvements. He is almost sitting up. He can go 10-20 seconds on his own. He has most of his head control. He gets tired and needs to rest his head. He has almost figured out how to roll from back to front. He still hates being on his tummy but has gotten so strong from it. His right hand is always in his mouth. If you give him a toy he will hold it and eat it. His therapist are confident he will walk with assistance, it will be at a much later date. He may need a motor chair before he walks to help get around as he gets heavier.

Therapy Tools
Besides the spoons he has a bench we use to help him sit at. As he gets older we will use it to sit on and help him get a good 90* angle when sitting. We use an exercise ball to help him get movement and strength training. We have a stander and chair on order. These are special equipment to help give him support in a standing and sitting position.

Here is B in the sample stander they brought us to try, his will be blue. He likes it and it's great to get him in an upright position.


Talking
B is not talking. He says 'hi' and makes tons of noises. His speech therapist is pleased with how he plays with sound, noise, and tone. He doesn't laugh per say but he makes cute little noises when he smiles, which is all the time. Yes, he really is that smiley!

Smarty Pants
I think the belief with special needs or brain damage is that the child is dumb. I know I had that belief when I was younger and I'd see a child that was different. B is very smart. He hears very well and is extremely perceptive. He responds to verbal cues and us or his therapists asking him to do certain things with his body. He understands his world around him he just responds and does things differently. He does not cry but he has his ways of letting us know he's unhappy, happy, just so so. We have mastered his cues. He has a bit of a feisty attitude. We have started calling him drama. He likes to be fussy and if we say 'hey Mr drama are you being a faker' he'll stop being fussy and flash you a big smile. Needless to say his personality is huge!

Vision
His vision therapist is amazing!! B tracks better and makes much better eye contact. It has improved so much and we only expect it to get better. When he gets his stander and chair his vision we expect to grow more. Laying down so much doesn't allow your vision to develop fully. Being in a more upright position you have better range and optimal position to see better and interpret what your seeing better.

That about covers it. If you have a specific question feel free to ask. I'm an open book pretty much. And bottom line B may be different, he may have special needs, but he is such an amazing little guy. He stole my heart and he continues to steel hearts along the way. Life with him comes with challenges and bad days but overall the joy makes up for a bad day and having him makes me a better person. We learn as we go and B takes us on his own journey...smiling the whole way...or sleeping LOL.

Wednesday, December 21

Merry Christmas

This pic is on the back...


Happy Holidays from us to you!

Tuesday, December 20

Randoms

*Christmas is 5 days away. My little kid excitement is kicking in!!

*We celebrated my nieces 2nd birthday on Sunday (her b-day is Friday). She was the cutest little birthday princess. And the little Dirt Devil vacuums they make, adorable!!


*My grandparents sent us a card from my late great-grandmother, she passed this summer. She wanted to give her family a card and money gift for Christmas. It was so sweet to see a gift from her.

*I am in love with B's new big boy hair. He looks like a toddler now.


*I am obsessed with these mini frozen g-free pizzas I found. They are the perfect small size and only 350 calories. I stocked up at the store last night and bought 12.

*B has been doing well with eating. He loves the vibrating spoon (Z Vibe).


*I finally watched Elf over the weekend. Best Holiday movie!

*I am 100% done with Christmas shopping!

*I am so excited to be going out for NYE. Last year I was asleep at 11 in B's ICU room. SO happy to have fun plans and he is healthy!!

*I love that B cuddles with me.


*He is the funniest sleeper. Deep in thought.


*D has two three day weekends coming up!! Excited to have him home!

*I think B may really actually be teething. I have been saying this for months now but he is a drool machine and that hand is always in his mouth.


*I realize in finding pictures to post 99% of my pics are of B, LOL. That's what happens when you have kids!

*I need a haircut SO bad. I have had to push it back because of holiday stuff and my hair dressers schedule. I am waiting until Jan 7 and it should have been cut in November. It will be in a pony tail until then!

*My mom and I copied Cheesecakes Factory arugula salad about a year ago and I am still obsessed with it. Arugula (or Spring Mix), blanched or sliced almonds, shaved Parmesan, golden raisins, lemon olive oil dressing (equal parts squeezed lemon and olive oil-salt and pepper). YUM!

Happy Tuesday!

Saturday, December 17

Snow-1 Car-0

Today Chicagoland got it's first snow. This is typically a happy event but I am a scrooge towards winter. Snow, ice, 10* weather, 20 layers and I'm still cold....not a fan!!!

So I left the house this morning bright and early (630am) for my womens group that meets twice a month and when I opened the front door...SNOW! About 1.5 inches and more was falling. Uhhh. Realizing that cleaning my car off would make me late I hauled some ass to get it done. Also not too thrilled I would be the one testing how the new car did in snow, I pressed on.

I was almost to my group and I turned into the parking lot at 5mph and slid...and slid...right into the curb. Thinking to myself "SHIT the car is brand f*ing new". I parked and stepped out to asses the damage.  I see a black tire where my hub cap used to be. I walked in to tell my group what happened and that I needed to go find my hub cap. I called D on my way back to the scene of the incident (aka across the parking lot). There it was, my sad little hub cap, right next to the curb!

Damn you snow!

After group I got a better look and magically the car body doesn't have a scratch but the hub cap didn't fair so well, it's cracked!

So call Mazda, order a new one...$59. WHAT THE HELL. For a plastic hub cap. Oh well it could have been worse.

Well winter you win this round!

Tuesday, December 13

B's first haircut!

We call B crazy hair because well his hair is crazy!! He has the cutest curls but the hair is a little out of control!!

I decided to cut it. i have been wanting to for two months now and I was chicken. Well yesterday morning I looked at B, grabbed the scissors, and said it's time!! I have never cut hair before so I just winged it and I did a good job I must say.

Before the cut...


And a few inches less later...




I totally get that mom anxiety with the first cut. After I did it I was like 'my babies curls are gone'. But change is good and his hair grows fast like mine.

Monday, December 12

"Santa! I know him"

This weekend B met Santa and Mrs. Clause (aka my friends parents who dress up every year). He was so happy, he loved Mrs. Clause!!



Santa was a success and my birthday weekend was wonderful. We had a great family dinner and my North Face coat is amazing!!! I have more sugar in my house from cake, cupcakes, cookies, brownies......uh.....time to hit the play button on Jillian! Pics to come (there on my p's camera).

Sunday, December 11

Curling wand?

I think I may chicken out of bangs. I think a good hair cut and color refresher will cure my 'I hate my hair phase' I get when I need a cut really bad. My apt is the 17th.

My hair is long now and I love the look of curled hair. I have always wanted a curling wand. I have a cheap curling iron I never use. I like the look of the wands better, more natural.

So I need advice on a brand? Does anyone own a good wand they would recommend? I have Ulta gift cards on my Christmas wish list to buy one. I need a new hair dryer too, my stylish recamends Salono for a dryer.

As far as wands I found some cheap ones and some not so cheap ones. I know that cheap can also perform cheap too. My gut says to get this Chi. So help a girl out!!!

Friday, December 9

29 years old!

Yup today is my birthday and I have entered the last year of my 20's!! One more year till thirty. I used to be afraid of thirty but as the 20's have been slowing going away I have been learning to embrace it. They say 30 is the new 20 and I hope not. I would not want to be 20 again. Although being an adult sometimes blows, I love myself at this age, I love being a mom and wife, and I love the few wrinkles I've earned.

So I still have one year and I will do my last year in my 20's proud!!

Today my parents are bringing me lunch. I asked for a salad and corn bread (I'm obsessed with Pamela's gf cornbread mix). Tonight Derek is picking up dinner of my choice.

Tomorrow we are having lunch with my friend Amy and seeing Santa. And we have dinner plans with our families and a few friends at Wild Fire!!

D and B got me some pretty flowers.


This was also on my wish list...North Face coat...just in time for the cold that is coming!! A little birdy told me I may get it tomorrow!


Happy Birthday to me!

Thursday, December 8

I love the holidays...

I love this time of year. I have already received a handful of Christmas cards, which I love. Mine have been put in the mail today.

Every year we get personalized ornaments for the tree and this year instead of doing the mall kiosk I ordered them online (ornaments.com). They have the same ones as the mall plus a ton more.




Of course we have a Starbucks ornament too, LOL. I love the ones we got this year. This year I wanted to get something for B's therapist since they do so much for him and us but having 4 therapist the gifts can add up. I decided to do a little treat Tupperware. Glade has cute holiday Tupperware, Dove peppermint chocolates, Hershy's peppermint kisses, and cookies. I think they turned out really cute and an inexpensive way to give a great gift.


Christmas will be here in no time. This weekend we are going to my friends martini bar and eatery to see Santa and Mrs Clause. Her mom and step dad dress up every year so the kiddos can take pictures with them. A much better alternative to the craziness at the mall. Last year we took B to there house to do pics with them, to avoid all the people since he was newly home from the NICU. We can't wait!!

This is from last year...


He has grown so much in one year!! Only 17 more days till Christmas...


And guess what tomorrow is?? MY BIRTHDAY! The big 29!

Monday, December 5

Giving Back

Saturday we made plans to cook a meal for the Ronald McDonald House, the one we lived at for 3 months.

The RMDH was such a special place for us that we wanted to give back to the families staying there now with sick children. It was surreal to be back at a place we associated with Brayden being sick and having B there with us and healthy was awesome.

One of B's NICU nurses stopped by to say hello and see her tiny preemie now a 23lb big boy. We swung by the NICU on the way home and our fave Dr was there. Dr Vega, she was in the delivery room with me to tend to B when he was born. She was on his team throughout the NICU stay and was a big part of his early life. It was great to see everyone.

B of course turned on the charm around all the ladies(nurses), such a little flirt!

We loved being able to give back, especially around the holidays. We plan to go back every year to cook. 



 My mom making the pasta

 My step dad taking a football break


Chillin with Ronald!

Saturday, December 3

Big Boy!

This morning B had his 15 month check up and he did so well with his shots. He never even cries. The nurses are always so surprised at how much of a champ he is!! He also got blood work to check his medication levels, he gets it checked every 2.5 pounds he gains. And just like the shots, drawing blood is no biggie for him!

My big boy is 23lb 11oz 32in


Today we are cooking a meal for the Ronald McDonald House that we stayed at while B was in the NICU. We wanted to give back for the holidays and this is something close to our hearts so we thought it was perfect. We lived there for 3 months and every night we had a hot meal provided to us. There was always food and snacks for us at no charge. I don't know what we would have done if we didn't have the RMH. This is something we are going to do every year to give back and help families with sick children, like we once were.

Happy Saturday...pics to come!

Friday, December 2

Bangs?

Should I get bangs? I feel like I ask myself this every six months or so, I cut my bangs, two months later they are driving me crazy, I grow them out, and then I'm back to wanting them again...LOL.

My hair has changed a lot over the last few years. I went from blonde to very dark. I love the color I have now but I think I may try it with a heavier bang.

Here is some past hair looks I pulled of myself:

 Short very blonde with a long bang

 Short blonde with a long bang

 Long blonde with a short bang. This is what I'm think of doing again, maybe a bit heavier though.

 Long blonde with no bang

 Light brown with a long bang(ish)

Dark with no bang

This is what I was thinking. I'd love some feedback on the bangs? I wear my hair up a lot because it ends up driving me nuts having it down all day. I think having a pulled up style with a bang would be better than the 'mom ponytail' I have been sporting lately.

 Cat Saddler (love her, E News). A heavier bang with dark hair
Let me say I hated Kim K with these bags and frankly I'm not a huge fan of her (I love Khloe) but this is sort of what I was thinking for a bang.